I Really Fucked Up When
I fucked up
But that happens every time when
I get too weak
And get back with her again
After all those things
I wrote about her being a whore
And how I didn't
Love her anymore
I wrote because
I wanted it to become true
Because when I saw her next
I knew what I'd do
I'd tell myself
It wasn't so bad when she
Would lie, ignore, yell
And cheat on me
I would remind myself
How I'm so fucking lonely
I will remember
How she's the only person that ever loved me
Not like I really need to remind myself
Of all the shit I wish was fake
I live and breathe it
Every second I'm awake
That's why she became
Someone that seemed like something new
That's why I thought I missed her
More than I really do
It always seems the bitter knowledge
I come to hate
Is the realization
That comes too late
I fucked up again
Who would have know
Now I have to break it to her
That it's better being alone
But who am I kidding
She just played her part
I have to break the news to me
That is going to break my heart
Goddamnit
I really fucked up when
I got weak
And met her again