Now That It's Done
Now that it's done
What do you think of me
Are you sorry
You ever loved me
I only ask
Because I want to see if you do too
God I hate myself
For ever loving you
I didn't need cheaters
To know you lied
You never really tried
To ever hide
Maybe you wanted to get caught
Or maybe you were too fucking stupid
Or maybe you just didn't fucking care
After all you never showed regret
You never told me you were sorry
You never even took responsibility
I guess it was just natural
For you to cheat on me
Begging for another chance
I gave you one everyday
But like the ones before
You just threw it away
Not with your honesty
But with your cruelty
You put things best
Every time you tried to hurt me
Like being embarrassed of me
Because I loved you
Or hiding me
When you saw someone you knew
Or telling me I meant nothing to you
And you don't know why
Or telling me how you fucked
Like every single guy
You know what
I'm embarrassed of me too
I can't believe I was ever dumb enough
To ever love you
Dumb enough
To ever fucking care
I wasn't embarrassed of you
When people would stare
And I wasn't embarrassed of you
When you jumped at every guy that walked by
I guess you just testing your feelings
Was just another lie
I was with you
Because I cared
You were with me
Because I was there
I would love to know
Are you still embarrassed of me too
God I fucking hate myself
For ever loving you