I Tried in Vain
When the road gets harder
I never seem to bend
I never made the mistake of
Following the trend of making friends
When I was in trouble
A helping hand no one would lend
I got stabbed before
So I won't be stabbed again
They need me
More than I need them
People are the reason for which
All my problems stem
Too caught up in
Who somebody might have kissed
Too caught up in
Their own shallowness
I have been suicidal
For awhile
But not because
It became in style
I have dealt with more
Then they'll ever see
They have no idea
How it feels to be me
But they scream twice as loud
A web of sympathy they weave
They take advantage of
The kind naive
They give the ugly image
Of the emotions I feel
They are truly sick
With something they would never heal
Hurt because of
The love they never get
Depressed because of
Some vain bull-shit
Then belittle me
With their demeaning advice
They belittle me
When they compare their problems with my life
They tell me life goes on
But who the fuck cares
I've been living my life that way
For the last five fucking years
I have been suicidal
For awhile
But not because
It became in style
Fat and sad
So you eat some more
Want a man
So you become a whore
Wont get a job
But bitch your poor
What the fuck
Are you complaining for
Your new dad don't like you
No one does
You wish things back
How they once was
You are confused
And failing school
He doesn't like you
You might as well be invisible
Your sisters is prettier
You are so lazy
You won't change
So you try to feel like me
But you refuse to see
All your choices
I've tried everything
To silence these voices
I've never told anybody
And I never looked for pity
Instead I write it down
So they know long after me
That I have been suicidal
For awhile
But not because
It came into style
I have tried to tell
But I tried in vain
I guess these emotions
Are impossible to explain