I Can Only Be Me
Why can't the fuckers see
Every time they arbitrary look down on me
They are just fulfilling the self-fulfilling prophecy
And now they steal from me
And now I feel ugly
What the fuck they want to see
I can only be me
I guess --- -------- - ---- -- -- were never real
Because I would never steal, because I never seen someone kill
I guess my world was just surreal
And all that shit that I feel was never real
I guess I lived in glamour, none of it cruel
Because I learned grammar and graduated high school
I guess I couldn't have it bad if I was able to expand my knowledge
Not on the streets but in an actual college
I guess I had it good because I pursued a degree
In psychology at a private university
I guess real suffering is only shown in you
I guess I had it better than I ever knew
The level to which you live
Depends to the level to which you compare
If I hadn't seen any better
I wouldn't have known how bad I had it here
But I had to see it every time
I stepped into this day
I had to see it every time
I remembered - ----- -- --- ---
I ---- ------ -------
Because ---- --- - --- ------ -- wear
I look stupid because
-- --- ---- -- ----
I know everybody is
Secretly laughing at me
I'm sorry we
--- ---- ------ --- -------
Can't ------ -------,
Just be careful when getting laid
We already went unprotected,
If she's not clean its too late
I just quit work again,
Something aren't worth getting paid
If I don't ---- -- -----,
I know they won't fade
I can get - --- ---- ----- --- -- ----,
I had them since --- --- -----
Why the fuck did jimmy have to
Steal every penny that I made
Take back my birthday presents
And save every penny I ever found
So I can afford a birthday present
When their birthday comes around
I've only had ---- ----- - ------ -----
It's --- ---- ---
I don't ---- - ----
It's snowing, but it's not that cold
I waited ----- - --- -- -- --- ------
-- -- ------- -----
I ---- --- ---- --- ------ -----
On -- ------ -- ----
Live my life in peace and hope
For the luck my life never seems to bring
Maybe next week
The stores will be hiring
Why can't the fuckers see
Every time they arbitrary look down on me
They just fulfilling the self-fulfilling prophecy
And now they steal from me
And now I feel ugly
What the fuck they want to see
I can only be me
My same problems are seen
In my whole family,
But they made sacrifices for me
Give up vices for me
So I can --- -- -------
So I can continue my education
And end having to live this way
But the only thing I can think about
Is how I don't want to live to see another day
Suicide isn't selfish,
In fact far from it
But it would be selfish
If my life would come to it
Too bad I've grown numb to it
I feel dumb as shit
I don't know, should I do it
Why can't the fuckers see
Every time they arbitrary look down on me
They just fulfilling the self-fulfilling prophecy
And now they steal from me
And now I feel ugly
What the fuck they want to see
I can only be me
I can't tell anymore
Do I want to succeed for my family
Or just to spite all those
Doubters around me
And I don't care if you think I'm lying
And you always will
The last concern on my mind
Is if you think I'm real
I'm not begging for attention
I'm not lying about how I feel
Writing these thoughts down
Helps my heart heal