Turn the Lights On
I wasted my life
I missed my past
I'm going no where
Way too fast
I'm sick of seeing
This this soon
It hurts waking
To this empty room
This empty life
This empty way
I can't sleep
24 hours a day
I'm tired of hearing
But never knowing
I'm sick of seeing
Where I'm going
This dreary life
I wish someone would turn the light on
Will they still see me
After I'm gone
Will they finally hear me
When I have nothing left to say
This bleakness leaves me wishing
I could sleep 24 hours a day
But wishing is foolish
Or so I've learned
It just leaves you weaker
To the unconcerned
Or just everyone
I've ever known
So many voices
But I'm still all alone
It hurts so bad
Every time I share
I read to her
But she never cares
She only sees the rhymes
That barely fit
She never understood the emotions
That came with it
For that was the only reason
I would write
It still feels like no one
Has turned on the light
Or ever will
I know where I'll be
There's no mystery
What this world holds for me
Only how much
I can seriously forget
It has gotten so hard
To live in regret
Mistaken choices
That have no path
It's easy to remember the voices
After the aftermath
Right now
It hurts so much to hurt to care
With no hope
There is no fear
And as I look back
On all those times I cared
I have to remind myself
I'm not scared
But I am
Of the sorrow
Today was like yesterday
Will it be like tomorrow
Is it a fate
That I can flee
I still dream of the day
That I don't see
But just as it's foolish to wish
It's worse to dream
Life doesn't have to
Be all that it seems
Or so says the people
Who live their life bland
They don't know their own lives
How could they ever understand
But they don't have to know
It doesn't bother me when they scoff
The light has been on
Maybe I should turn it off